Practically for as long as I've been on the internet, I've been terrified of making mistakes, of being cringe. My first few accounts, I remember, I was free of this. I posted dozens of YouTube videos, art, and unfinished fanfictions. I miss that. All of it has been privated or deleted now, but I have made dozens of accounts since then. Each time I'm active for a few months before going into radio silence, either not touching technology at all or just playing dead. I love having a new identity. I love watching the internet unfold from the sidelines, no one knowing who I am and no one missing me when I'm gone. I'm the same way in real life. I love to be ignored, and I love to disappear, and I wish I could say that sarcastically but it's just the truth.
What an emo introduction to a blog, huh? Without being overly dramatic like this, I don't know what to say. I look back at old, overly dramatic posts, and feel the urge to delete another account. But this is only a little Neocities website. I have no connections here, and no one knows who I am, so I'll be as cringey and emo as I want. I hope this inspires you to try doing the same, if that happens to be what you need.
- Barb